Some days are truly overwhelming. Today we got a letter from the township declaring that we were in violation because we hadn't gotten a permit for electrical improvements we had done to the house around 2 years ago. The letter stated we were being fined $2000 and for every week we didn't pay, another $2000 would be added to the fine. The letter also said they could force us out of the home.
TB and I nearly had heart failure.
He called the electric company and within a half hour we found out that there is a permit but that we probably needed to have an inspection done of the work. The secretary reassured us not to worry; we'd done nothing wrong and they would handle it.
I am a quivering mess of nerves. I don't know how much more stress we can take. Even though it turns out this is all right there is still the enormous burden of the other problems we're carrying.
My mother said once that there was a curse on our family because my father is an atheist. A part of me knows that that is silly but another primitive superstitious part of me wonders if it's true.
I know we are not the only ones to face hard times but there is such an overwhelming amount of hard times here. It's not just the health it's also the finances and the possibility of losing our home and our car.
I woke up today and have been walking around with such a feeling of dread and doom. I hate feeling this way. I don't feel like doing anything because of this pervasive what's the use? emotional thing I have going on.
We saw another specialist for TB--this time at the Rothman Institute which is supposed to be renown for orthopedic care. Well, we were basically blown off there, too. The doctor said TB isn't a candidate for surgery in his opinion not only because of his weight but also because back surgery benefits the legs more than anything else and TB doesn't have a lot of leg involvement. The doctor told TB back surgery doesn't help all that much with back pain; often patients still have the same pain--sometimes it's worse! He also said that he felt TB had a 25% chance or less of going back to work.
Nice and encouraging, eh?
No wonder I feel so bad.
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3 comments:
My problems are so trival compared
to yours, yet you take time to help
others like me....... I want to know
when good people get a break?
There has to be something better
in the future for you.... Try thinking good thoughts. :)
OMG Cassie! I had heart failure for you! That is just awful! and TB's doctor! can you get anymore encouraging? JEEZUS!
Love you hon, hang in there, we'll be praying for you!
It sounds rough. For fun and to get your own back, maybe you can hire a "will work for share of the payout" litigator for "emotional hurt" and get back at the jerks in the council who write such crap? These petty bureaucrat people forget their salary comes from our pockets!
My dad went for back surgery and it did no good at all - either way. My mate has just decided to put hers off for 2 years because she's not too bad and this science is advancing significantly every 2-3 years. Hang on in there. Your doc sounds good. Nice to hear someone give an honest opinion rather than a sales talk.
But gosh it sounds like a bad time. Just remember: you will get through it. I cuddle the cats and visit Doji the dog next door when I'm down.
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